Life as I know it!

Everyday, as they say, is a new day. A fresh morning, a fresh start to something new or may be a new perspective to something old. Some people wake up thinking its a long day, some wake up thinking why me?, some wake up thinking life isn't as beautiful as they thought it would be, etc. Everyone has something going on in their mind, I do too. The only question that constantly pops up in my mind throughout the day is why can someone not wake up with a clear mind? Why is everything so complicated, or is it we who complicate things?

I don't seem to get it. Life is too short to analyse each and every thing, each and every moment. Can't it just be simple and clear? We all think of how miserable our lives are. We all wonder about how many things we have to do and how we don't have the time to fit everything in. But do we ever realise that if this wasn't the case, then there would be no fun. Even with all the running around that we do, don’t meet people as often as we would want to, don’t get to do whatever we want to whenever we want to, but the day all of it happens, the joy and the happiness we feel certainly has no bounds.

We all have days when we feel spaced out, have various mood swings, but everyday irrespective of it all, we still have to get back to the drill. When we look at somebody else, we often feel how lucky we are. Everyone has their share of problems, and everyone thinks their own problem is graver than the other persons. But the fact still remains, that we’re all sailing in the same boat. Our destination is the same- to feel happy and content; it’s just the directions to get there are different. We're all similar is some ways!

We seldom realise that the cause of our problem could be us. We all make mistakes only to learn from them and if we don’t, then we’re just fools. With time you just have to camouflage yourself. I’ve been there and gone through it myself. But today, after some hundred mistakes, I’ve realised how beautiful my life is. The imperfection of my life just makes it perfect…completely worth living! I know I may have forgotten to thank many people on my way to getting where I am today, so I want to thank them all now. I want to apologise to many, but want apologies from none. I’m happy with the people I’m with and glad that many people left me stranded alone on the way because had they not, I wouldn’t have been the person I am right now. So, thank you to them as well.

Today, at this point, I have no regrets, or wait, I’d lie if I say I have none. But I’m happy with the way my life has shaped. Had it not been for it all, I wouldn’t be the person that I am now. So, this is my way of saying, life is wonderful and this is life as I know it.
La life!

Voices in my head

There are these voices in my head that keep telling me, do you really think what you're doing is good enough? Then that makes me think, am I really good enough?
What I'm doing may seem good, while you're just an onlooker. But when I do something, I don't do it to meet someone's expectations or desires. For me, its just the happiness on peoples faces- be it my family, my boss, my colleagues, my friends or whoever else. For me its the happiness the person feels from something I've done. For me it's easy to adjust, but not change. I want to be liked for what I am and how I am, or else, does it really matter?
There would be ten people out there who would do anything to seek attention, I don't need it, I don't want it. All I want is appreciation, criticism, just the required push to learn more, know more. This world is my stage, I want to showcase my art. I want to dance like no ones watching and write like everyone's reading. I want to live life to the fullest, make each and every minute the best.
You may say I'm strange, I'm weird or anything. You may say whatever. There are myriad forms of different words. I want to hear them all, understand them all. I want to do so much, hear so much and learn so much more. I want those voices in my head to disappear for I'm not living for someone else, I'm living for me. I want to be me and not someone else's expectation. If I become that, then what's the difference between Barbie and me? It will all be just make believe, won't it?

How real is real?

Entertainment is a major part of all our lives. We probably can survive days without watching TV, but then we also have those days when we spend hours just watching TV. Indian television has always surprised me. Be it the saas-bahu sagas, or the now very popular reality shows. These so called reality shows have always made wonder how real is real? Each show guarantees you that it's different from the other, but all of them have equal amount of drama involved. In fact, I don't find anything different in them.
For some reason though, I think they're rather entertaining. Let's take Rakhi Ka Swayamwar for example. The lady had contestants from all over who would want to become her groom. She, for once was fully dressed from top to bottom in many episodes. Then after much contemplation she decided to marry Elesh Parujanwala. Well she only decided, never did. Then came Rahul Dulhaniya Le Jayega. Again the same process, same everything, the only difference was that he married Dimpy Ganguly, the chosen one. But even his post marriage controversies and revelations of how the show was scripted were all out in the open. And now we have Ratan Ka Rishta.  I wonder what will be there in that because from what I see in the promos, one of the qualifications to become her groom is that the guy has got to like 'lauki'. Like seriously? Going by that, my groom must hate brinjal... whatever!
Then comes the very loved and much watched (I was a loyal viewer) Bigg Boss. In the first season, we had Rakhi (yes...again) falling for a fellow contestant but because he was engaged, she was depressed. So in this one certain episode of the show we had Rakhi standing with a broom in her hands, leaning against a wall, crying and there was the song Kya mujhe pyar hai playing in the background. What are we supposed to get out of this? Do we actually do that in real life? Then followed some three more seasons. However, I thought the fourth one to literally have it all. Action, drama, romance, comedy and much more. There was a point when people would literally sit glued to the television between 9-10 at night. Who wouldn't want to see Veena Mallik a.k.a. Pout Queen making a complete fool of herself by pouting in front of the mirror, dancing on the table, Ashmit Patel trying his luck with almost all the single women but then settling down with Veena, Dolly Bindra screaming "hurrrrrr", The Great Khali trying to talk but somehow his voiced only echoed, so on and so forth. The season, as they call it, had all the right masala. But again, the same question arises, is it real or should we just make ourselves believe that it is?
Whatever said and done, real or not, we all somewhere enjoy watching all these shows, laughing out loud and just wondering what actually happened to the concept of reality shows?

Ps- Rakhi Sawant now wants play Phulan Devi... never mind!
Also, I couldn't have mentioned the ten thousand reality shows that are there, else the blog would've never ended.